In 2015, our family (inlaws) experienced holiday death in the family again. My brother in law's mother in law passed away right after Thanksgiving. An aunt's sister died on Thanksgiving Day (November 26) .
I was so tired, for various reasons, that I never even decorated last year.
My writing has become more polished over the years but I am not going to do any editing. This voice from the past is speaking to me, and I hope its message will help some of my readers.
Here's the post from 2009.
Tis the Season....for Sadness
No, that's not true.
The holidays are not happy for everyone.
11 years ago December 25..... Spouse and I were at my in-laws on Christmas Day. They live about 150 miles from where we live. We had a nice day with other family members, and settled down to watch "It's a Wonderful Life" with my mother in law and father in law. Then we went to bed.
My father in law never woke up. He died during the night of a massive heart attack, his third.
Imagine my mother in law, spending the day after Christmas arranging for the funeral of her husband of nearly 50 years. The decisions that had to be made quickly, oh so quickly. The little things, like flowers being almost impossible to come by (flowers being a part of their culture's funeral tradition). Or us having to borrow clothes for the funeral-most people don't visit for Christmas with black clothes in their suitcase! Those little details, in a sea of all the major details, on a holiday weekend.
The family gathered again but this time for a much sadder occasion. Many people came to the funeral home, and it was a great comfort. But then everyone had to go home, including us.
And then the next Christmas rolled around. It was not easy. But we survived, and each year it became easier. My mother in law has established her independence, and enjoys Christmas with family.
It never goes away but it does become easier. Although, I have never watched "It's a Wonderful Life" again.
Years ago I worked with someone whose husband died from cancer on Thanksgiving. In my youth I couldn't understand why Thanksgiving was so hard for her.
Now I understand.
"Blue Christmas" is more than an Elvis song. For those who have experienced loss: loss of a loved one, loss of a relationship, loss of a job, the holidays can be so hard to survive, even if you are not a Christian. Wherever you go, you are surrounded by smiling Santa's, by holiday decorations, by endless carols blaring at work, at the supermarket, at the mall, by constant reminders that everyone is happy. Except you.
But, you are not alone. And you will get through it, although it may take a long time.
Time is your friend. It was for me. I hope it is for you.